Y Thursday, November 30, 2006 Y
untitled
and everyone was dead beat.
we could at least take a breather at this point of time.
and i, should cease all activites. before i break down
this is too much for me to handle.
and i'm starting to miss home already.
i see no reason why i should be still in school when the night falls
but somehow, i cant explain myself.
law was.. aiyah, fuck it larh. it is a very interesting subject but all those memorising kills. and it is the only module i understand larh. oh, fuck it. i'll stop playing red car plate. all thanks to MR GOH! knn.
i should be in bed.
byebye.
i need to sleep sleep sleep!
and i can't explain myself either, let it be
maybe i've disappoint you.
i have to admit ...
somethings are just not meant to be said.
Y Wednesday, November 29, 2006 Y
youNAME it
& the 3rd party wouldn't know this.
i'm the only one who really truly understands.
so don't bullshit with me saying you know what i'm going through
& i hate to say it, you will never ever understand.
call me names,
i don't really care.
cause it doesn't matter anyway, not anymore
you kill it. thank you.
Y Tuesday, November 28, 2006 Y
happily ever after
and she married; happily ever after
and she is the most beautiful lady yesterday
things wun be the same for her anymore
its her new life, a new chapter
and i'll miss her so,
hopfeully, she does too.
and i'm still figuring out how to call him. (HA!)
welcome to HIS family!
and now, back to my own stuffs,
i've figured out, i guess
maybe we'll be better off without each other
at least for now, ...
i don't really care about the outcome,
and in this life, i was loved by you.
and i certainly wish it last a lifetime
but i am really really contented to have you once
i'll move on but still holding on. :)
i'll pick things up bit by bit.
if you think that i'm slow, just move on
i'll catch up soon.
and lets be a part (of our memories), not apart
Y Sunday, November 26, 2006 Y
SUPERMAN
never ever buy things without checking the price of the item that you are buying. i bought this foolscap thinking that it will cost 2+? in the end, it cost 3.90. bloody hell. is darn expensive for a foolscap can. such a waste of my money. *smack me.
alright, i think is because of that superhero that make the foolscap so costly. oh well. my relatives from indo have all arrive. my house is so happening now. so much laughters and so much noise. though, my mom is tired but i can see that she is really happy to see all her love ones again. imagine you marrying to another country and leaving your love ones behind. ): somehow, they still got that strong bonding though they have not seen each other for many many years. CHEERS! i love them though we got communication breakdown. hahas.
i studied law today with WAWA! that si ba hu. keep on saying si ba hu. like wth larh. we promise to go back to sch and study every weekend, hor si ba hu? i need to wake up at 5 later. HA!
laters. :)
and she will be his forever, tomorrow.
Y Friday, November 24, 2006 Y
=/
perhaps one year ago, i was dolled up and attending our ohnotsoglam PROM. and i will always remember how that puny arse actually was so lucky to win a ipod shuffle. like wtf. here i am now, staying up almost every single night. i think i'm wasting my life away. indeed!! i want to go back to those innocent days when things are just not so complicating.
okay, i am GROWING UP.
one day, i think i'll just escape from this world.
and i really mean escape. not just appearing offline.
ESCAPE! i need to breathe.
uttery weary, we are both
i suppose.
Y Thursday, November 23, 2006 Y
if only
if only we didn't meet
if only we met earlier/later
if only you didn't tell me the truth
if only i didn't hurt that much
if only i
if only i understand myself well
if only i learn how to ask why.
and the list just go on and on. if only those if onlys happen. then our life would be much more happier. HA!
Y Wednesday, November 22, 2006 Y
:)
itunes! why did you screw up?
oh yarh, my phone died on me yesterday. great. is like i'm away from the world you know. LOL!
i got bloody lots of things to do. LAW LAW LAW! fuck larh
i need to be more civilised. i had been saying the F word for dont know how many fucking times. oh well..
is 2am now and i got to wake up at 6 later.
& i don't know what time am i gg to sleep.
this is just so great!
*edit/ clock read 4:12AM
i am damn pissed off right now.
not just by myself but also someone who just wake up. go guess who is that someone. had a short convo with puny arse just now. i guess poly are just full of superficial idiots. oh well.. and one of our friends are thinking of changing course. like wtf. okay, shaoling. compose yourself. you ain't suppose to say that FORK word again. now got man utd match. oh great! thanks to that someone who just wake up and on that bloody tv and tempt me to watch. fukcer. HAHA! should i sleep or not?
Y Monday, November 20, 2006 Y
lone
upon seeing no one at home, gulity strikes. i used to have people at home whenever i come back from school. i take things for granted and yes, i am not so close to my family members anymore. not even my beloved second sis. we are all caught up with our own stuffs. we don't talk as much anymore. i miss good old days. when mom will be at home cooking dinner and nag at me whenever i don't do housechores. now, she don't even bothered to nag. many many things happen during these few years. we are forced to change. we have no wish to change. i wish mom don't need to work. but somehow, she has to. the harsh reality changed us. not us. we are forced to adapt to the world. the reality. so we shouldn't take things for granted. i want to tell everyone how much i love you all.
MOMMY
i love you alright. i know i'm naughty and lazy and i don't help doing housechores. but i'm learing to help out already. i did iron clothes for quite a few times this week okay. and i promise to be a good daughter. i know you wouldn't read this but still i wanna say those three words to you. i never say those 8 letters word out to you this 17 years. but i know you know that i love you. i love you lots, mom.
DADDY
okay dad, i seldom talk to you. i will learn to tolerate your loud voice and your forever sounds like quarrelling voice. i don't like your so called logic. nevertheless, you are still my beloved dad. LOVE
JIEJIE 1
maybe we have a generation gap. 9 long years for god sake. though the way you showered your love is different. (not financially) you always nag and scold. but i know, you do this all for my own good. and i always show attitude back. maybe you don't know, but i take your advice seriously. you are getting married in less than a week time. you asked "will you miss me when i'm not at home already?" i certainly will okay. i will miss your nag-ings and all. be happy alright, i know you will. :D and i love you too.
JIEJIE 2
alrighto, you are my fav person in this family. or maybe 2nd fav. mom comes first okay. you are not at home now. staying at hostel. i miss you alright. no one to laugh with. no one to fight with. remeber how we used to fight in the kitchen? HA! fighting over all sorts of silly things. is silly but fun. you are being missed by me okay. i love you like hell. i know i'm irritating at times. and you are too. but still we will make the bestest sisters.
MARK
i don't know whether you know. but i love you alright. i may not say out these words on a regular basis. but i really love you. though we are not together now, you are always in my mind. i never failed to forget you. even though how busy i'm caught up with my schoolwork, i still miss you. you are the love of my life. and you will always be. i certainly hope that things work out between the both of us. but right at this moment, i am sure i wouldn't have the sense of security if we get back together. i'm not sure whether you will wait or not. but still i want to tell you i love you so. and will wait till you complete your studies. though you did things that hurts me so, but still i'll forget and forgive. cause i love you so. <3<3<3
FELI,CANDICE,KATTY,LISI,YENYEE,WEIYOUNG
alrighto. my clique. you guys really really brighten up my life. (: though all of us are busy with stuffs and personal life. still, i wanna say. you guys will be my bestest bestest bestest best buddies ever. i will never ever find another clique like you. is hard for us to meet up due to our really busy life now. nevertheless, i just want you all to know that you are missed and loved by me, alright. i may seem not so enthu on meets up and whatsoever. still, i miss you all. i really do. you guys know me the best. I LOVE YOU!
BEVERLY,MELISSA
beverly ass, you are so irritating but i love you alright. how many years alrd? 8 years and still counting. i know you at pri 4 right. okay, whatever. we were not so closed then. we start out nonsense only at sec 3. but our friendship started way back. so yea, maybe the best girlfriend ever. who knows?
melissa lim pei pei. you are such a good listening ear. i never failed to pour out all my feelings whenever we go chill. i love chill session with you leh. when is the next one? tell me! :D dont always choir larh. haha. love you two PEEPS okay.
4E3
the bestest class ever. I LOVE 4E3 and miss 4E3 okay! sometimes words are beyond explaination. i want to let the whole world know i miss 4E3!
03
poly mates. poly classmates. someone told me that poly classmates wouldn't be as bonded as seconday classmates. i beg to differ. 03 are a bunch of happening kids. we laugh whenever we go. friends envy our class spirit. pretty much love for you guys. (not all though, you know i know)
new clique
we've not known each other for a long time. but still you guys are fun people. i know we will have lots fun in the future!
i am not dying or whatever. but i just wanna tell all my loved ones that i love them. who knows, i may not be here the very next moment. i don't want to leave people thinking that i don't love them. i need to be truthful to my feelings.
Y Sunday, November 19, 2006 Y
troublesome
hi, i am back. as in back to using blogspot. i miss changing skins and all. but i wun close wordpress too. HA! let it be my hideout. (: i did shopping today. and i really mean shopping. bought quite a number of stuffs. and i am going to feed on bread for the next few months. i need to scrimp and save already. if not, i can really die. haha. okay, just a brief update on my so called new blog. :D
oh oh, man utd is still on the top of the table. & i'm so proud of them.
GOODNIGHT folks.