Y Sunday, December 31, 2006 Y
two-oh-oh-seven
0420 edit*/
janice asked me to blog more since its the last day of 2006. ok whatever. lets see. this year isn't really a good year. and those around me should know what shit happen to me. or rather around me. so so so. 2006 is a okok year for me lah. haha. my sis got married. some sickness struck my godma. i broke up with my boyfriend. i merely scape through sem 1. and am struggling with sem 2. met lots of new and fun people. had had a cheena boss -.- not anymore. much misses for people in bendemeer secondary school. had this cake smashing/egg cracking thingy on my b'dae. had many stayover at friends house. mommy had become more relax with me on where i am going and who i am out with (she had always been that way. even she don't let me out, i'll still change and go out. HA!) is just that i just need to tell her where i am going and whether i'll be home tonight or not and she will let me go. (: 2nd sis not at home for a period of time. no she din ran away. she stayed at the hostel. had this little niece visiting us. hongkong-ed. i guess year 2006 must be the most happening year in my life.
p.s: i use skype but i don't talk cause i never have a liking for phone calls. HAHA!
new year resolution(s)? okay. i think i know now. i need to find a man. cause my mom say so. she said to me this morning "year 2007 liao, you will be 18. so its high time for you to find a boy." okay, mom gave approval alrd. so i can officially go on man hunt. HAHA! my cute weird mama. actually, it doesn't matter if i really have a boyfriend or not. (: the thing that i really really wanna do when i turn one-eight is that i wanna go clubbing. hahaha. when you can club, you need not think of where to hang out when the night falls. cause you know singapore really has nothing to do at night. hahaha.
was on the bus doing my "curry pok" hair. then this cute young boy turn around and see what i'm doing. and he showed this "WOW! THIS-JIEJIE-HOW-COME-DO-THE-HAIR-LIKE-THAT FACE". so adorable.
chelsea drop 2 points and man utd is leading by 6 points. oleh! (:
how're you doing, my dear?
"when you're a child, you believe
you can be anything you wanna be,
go wherever you wanna go.
there are no limits.
you expect the unexpected,
you believe in magic.
then you grow older and that innocence is shattered.
the reality of life gets in the way and
you're hit by the realisation that you can't be all you wanted to be,
that you might have to settle for a little bit less."
Y Friday, December 29, 2006 Y
boring (:
this may very well be the most boring day i could ever had. i laze around. i read book! that wonderful storyline which makes me wanna continue reading on. everytime i read this kinda book (romance), i always wished that i don't live in singapore and am a blonde and had this loving angmoh boyfriend cohabiting together. HAHA! this is all nothing but a dream. you really wish to be the leading character in the book.
suddenly, i dont really wish to get married. hahaha! i know its a little too early to say this kind of things. but you know, when you are young and naive. you will always have these thought "hey! i want to marry who and who. earning big big bucks. living in some 3 storeys high apartment. having maids. how many kids you want to have. holding some professional jobs." *snap* sometimes, things just don't go the way you want to. i am not a lists person. who follows things on plan. cause i always believe unforeseen circumstances always happen and "ta-dah" it just disrupt your whole plan. and all your hardwork will go down the drain. so whats the point of having plans? school times, teachers always want us to come up with study plan. how many of us really follow? i don't follow for god sake. i just anyhow blabber on that shit piece of paper to please the teachers so that i wouldn't get any scoldings or worst still DC. HAHA! now at this stage of life, saving plan does come up. but uh-huh, when something really nice appear, i really forgo my saving plans and go ahead and buy those things i like. and i can be really broke once i got my hand on that. and i hate to blabber on. cause it bores me and i think you as well.
how i wish i got bestie like "ALEX" in that novel and they fall in love with each other without knowing. and god damn it, ALEX is smart, he is a doctor, studied in harvard. HAHA! make up character are always so perfect. just like LUKE in SHOPAHOLIC series. HAHA! why din god make me up to be such a perfect character?
i guess i am not a home person. i cant stay at home for 24hrs. its driving me crazy alrd. lol. i need some spark in my life. i hate having this kind of life. haha. maybe things will turn round next year.
HAHA! anyway, someone who is fucking working for dont know how many fucking years had actually asked me to share the cost of a "da bao" fried oyster with her. and that bloody packet of meal cost only 5 bucks. how idiotic can she be? for god sake, she doesn't need to support anyone. can't she just bloody treat a 17 yrs old young adult? blardie hell. stingy arse. i don't know how to reply her when she bring up that question. i may very well post another entry when the owls are out. (:
and boy, you don't know how much i miss you.
edit*/
i told you i'll write more. haha. cause more n more thoughts came. and i love to type it out. i don't know why people like to say things that people don't love to listen. i alrd told my mom that i loathe her saying that. but still she just blabbers on. and you know what i did. i plug in my earphone and totally ignore what she said. and the funniest thing is that she said "girl, i tell you something, you don't angry ar." bloody hell, knowing that i'll be darn pissed off. still you chose to say it out. idiot mama. oh, for now only.
oh oh, i make bagus agar agar. yum yum. even mama say so. (: alright people, LATER!
elvin ng!
SHE SAID "HE DAMN HOT CAN!" (:
Y Wednesday, December 27, 2006 Y
dirty little secret
cold cold cold.
is damn fucking cold. HA!
okay, i went KBOXING today since its BOXING DAY! HAHA! okay, no link. i saw wanqi at the kbox toilet and then i just know that GOHTEEYUE was in kbox too. thats so qiao. HAHA! its raining all day long. & i dont know why those 2 kukus don't want to bring umbrella out when its obviously raining. result-ing 3 idiots squeezing under one umbrella. how idiotic is that? VERY! so CHEONGSHUJUAN & CELESTELIM. heard that? bring your kuku umbrella whenever its raining and especially meeting me! cause now you know that i don't like to share umbrella with two people. cause three is a crowd! HAHA!
i got this little secret to share. you know people who doesn't have a christian name, they will tend to come up with their own christian name which they adore. i am no exception. but mine, with a little help of my sisters. (: eldest sis DENISE. -.- i never like that name. second sis JENISE ; this is much more better. and my 2nd sis called me SHANISE. you know those "NISE" behind. haha. i'm okay with that. just that i am not used to people calling me that. so i stick with my own beautiful/cool/unique cheena name. SHAOLING! (: i used to hate this name when i'm much much younger. cause you know "SHAOLIN SHI" & now i am so used to it that i actually love it a lot. cause its so unique can. how many people actually have the name SHAOLING? i can tell you nil. hahaha. but still if i ever ever want a christian name myself. i think i'll call myself JACKIE. haha. i love those uni-sex name. alexis, you heard me. hahaha!
okie, i am being random today. (: those rain are driving me nuts cause they block the sun and thus ME not able to go sentosa and sun tan. idiot. RAH! i need a tan realrealrealreal soon. i cannot stand my yellow-ish skin. BAH! i want tan tan tan. (: i miss school already. can school start soon? and you know what, 1 week later i'll be blogging about how much i loathe school. OKAY! DAMN ME! (:
till now, i still didn't receive an email from MR ONG. so does that mean that i pass my ECONS? *jumps around merrily*
i hope i can wake up at 830 later.
if not, i'll bound to get more naggings from mom.
i hate taking small naps on sofa.
cause they make me so awake that i can't go to bed now.
apparently, i just wake up from a 20 mins nap. HOHO!
okay, i blog enough. i wanna watch desperate housewives alrd! :D
dumb dumb wants gum gum.
if you no gum gum, you better run run (:
Y Tuesday, December 26, 2006 Y
you know when one group has all the attention ;
and they come up with names for themselves.
some people just wanna be in that particular group.
just so as to get all the attention.
this is what i call ATTENTION SEEKER!
goodnight folks.
and i'll never be like them.
mark my words.
oh oh, HAPPY BOXING DAY!
Y Monday, December 25, 2006 Y
MERRY X'MAS!
MERRY X'MAS!
yesterday night was quite a blast. i wun go into details. HA! everyone was happy. (: everyone enjoyed ourselves. YAY! after yesterday night, all the more i wanna turn 18 soon. haha. wanted to cab home. but somehow got psycho by ivan to catch the first bus home with him. so i reached home at around 7 feeling super awake. HA! but nevertheless, i still fall asleep straight away when i lied on my bed. so its noon time. i slept for 8 hours. watched amazing race asia marathon with my sis. then we decided to catch Night At The Museum. (SO DUMB DUMB WANTS GUM GUM? HA!)
you know, i don't like meeting up with my IS mates to do projects. they are no fun people. i don't like. but somehow, i still need to. argh!
i LOVE red nails.
and somehow, i miss typing MTYJ out. HAHA!
i miss mtyj too. :D
Y Sunday, December 24, 2006 Y
X'MAS!
i had fun today.
which explain why i am tired.
i am going to have fun again tomorrow.
and i can foresee that i'll be dead tml.
so you know what i should do now.
SLEEP!
Y Saturday, December 23, 2006 Y
HEY GIRL, MIND YOUR LANGUAGE.
hahaha. i need to mind my language.
i shall stop FUCKING saying FUCK.
stop fucking say BYEBYE to the CHEE. (:
OKAY, I NEED TO GO AND PURCHASE SOME RIBBON.
BUT I AM DAMN FUCKING LAZY.
HAHA!
AS YOU CAN SEE, I AM FUCKING BORED TOO!
Y Friday, December 22, 2006 Y
BACK
HELLO PEOPLE.
I AM BACK! (: camp was fun fun n more fun. HA! i love camps. don't you? seeing all those familiar and not familiar faces. and we all mingle around. no groups at all. HAHA! get to know more about familiar people and know those unfamiliar faces.
TBC is just awesome. we are great! i am so looking forward to FOC'07. it doesn't matter if i become a crew or a GLs. cause both played an important role and i love being part of this big family! :D great people there. u know, i had a mindset of wanting to be a GL when i went for the camp. but hey, after planning the night walk and stuff. i think its fun being a crew too. but still, i wanna be a GL. heh.
okay, no real good looking boys in the camp. haha. darius still look better. LOL! but they are fun people. i get to know another MARK! LOL! Caryn, Angeline, Sally, Joanne, WanQi. HAHA! they are fun people okay. :) esp that Sally so uber cute. i think i got flu from Angeline. damn her. she must be damn fucking sleeping at home now. and she talks nothing but shit throughout the whole camp. and you know how many years of friendship? 8? i think i wanna get more sleep. HEH! (:
now that i'm back, i'll miss you even more.
& to hell with PROJECTS!
i need to fucking rush projects now. (after x'mas!)
oh oh. i am damn fucking hungry too! HAHA!
i think i'm going a bit crazy alrd.
you know. post-camp thingy.
its always like that. we get super hyper after camp.
YAY!
Y Wednesday, December 20, 2006 Y
BYE!
am jealous that people who ain't that pretty actually got such a not bad looking boyfriend.
i've got big plans up.
and i just realise im darn busy this week. HOHO!
my mom is going to scream at me for not staying at home that often. rawr.
anyway, i'm running away from home.
HA!
i'll be back.
till then. (:
Y Monday, December 18, 2006 Y
i miss
i took a different route home today.
or rather a longer route.
cause i enjoy the rain on my skin.
and at the same time i can pondered.
walking down the old street,
i recalled back.
when i was a little ugly girl.
always walking down that street with mom.
she hold on to my hand tight whenever we cross the road.
time goes by, we grow.
we don't even wanna wake up early in the morning to help out.
we sleep at wee hours.
now, im feeling damn right gulity.
i didn't spend that right amount of time with my family members.
oh, how i miss those good old days
when things ain't that complicated.
those innocent young childhood days.
how funny life can be.
last night i was really piss off.
and now i am telling how gulity im feeling towards my family.
oh great. this is what i call LIFE!
and baby, i don't quite know how to say this.
all i got to say is, i really love you.
and its really amazing.
you are the last thing my heart expected.
i never knew someone like you will come into my life.
i am damn fuck right piss off now.
you know what i wanna do right now?
GROW UP AND GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE.
think the only thing that can make me happy now is: man utd better win this match. & dont fucking come and bother me with your nonsense.
later`
Y Saturday, December 16, 2006 Y
hey love, i don't feel your love anymore.
Y Friday, December 15, 2006 Y
randomUPDATE
just fuck me please.
i am damn fucking sick. :(
YAY! no more common test. but that doesn't mean no more late nights. i'm going to stay up all night despite my bad condition of flu. HAHA! i got too much tv catch up to do. HA! when i sneeze, one tear will roll down. LOL! that is how sick i am. but i don't really care. hahas. its the holidays anyway. and my sis is fucking jealous of having a long term break when she just started her holis as well. HOHO! its great to have my sister back at home. though its irritating, but i still like it. hahas.
anyway, "THE HOLIDAY" is a great movie. go catch it alright. JUDE LAW is so good-looking can. haha. and in that show, he is such a great dad/mom. which woman doesn't want her husband to be like that? i will want my hubby to be like that. when i died, he will take great care of our kids and also find another woman of his love. aha. i love this kind of movies. <3>
breaks up ain't that bad. girl, just hang in there. is okay not to let go but in the midst of not letting go, please please don't lose yourself in the process. IS HELL, I ASSURE YOU. hang in there, cause you know we are there for you. i know you wouldn't be reading this but anyway I LOVE YOU, girl. =) and you ought to know how badly i miss you. we have to meet up often!
just some random photos. HA! i know you guys miss seeing me. LOL!
i am lazy to upload more. HAHA!
Y Wednesday, December 13, 2006 Y
<3
MAGGI MEE IS LOVE
i cooked superb maggi okay. since its the only thing i know how to cook. DANG! is uber nice. HEHE! i'll cook for YOU one day. (: be honoured okay. HA!
ELS! HAHAHA! i am going to partyyyyy tml! i don't care. i don't want to be home so early. HA! i am going to catch the last bus home though. cause im saving. for no reasons. its great to have bucks in your pocket okay.
HAHAHA!
i am high on drugs today.
well, not today. but for many many days!
YAY with me.
HELLO, i'm BA HU!
Y Tuesday, December 12, 2006 Y
youNAME it
so tell me, is this how our story ends?
or is it just a new chapter?
this love is so so so tough.
i always have this thought.
"hey, will you be better off without me?"
only you yourself will know the answer.
be it yes or no. i don't know.
i know, i have been acting in a way which you may not like.
but hey, i may not love you the way you want me to
but that doesn't mean that i don't love you with all i have.
i know you are tired but i am too.
you want me to whisper sweet nothings?
want me to text you on how much i miss you?
i really wish that someday, i'll do that.
just to make you happy.
but somehow, if i do that, i know very well.
thats not the person you love.
i want to be me. i don't wish to change to a person whom i don't understand.
and if this disappoint you, im sorry.
and i don't quite understand why we have to say so much "SORRY" in this relationship.
loving you was never easy. i knew it right from the start.
we had so much obstacles to overcome right from the start.
but nevertheless, i tried. and all of them can see. i've change a lot ever since i met you.
ask yourself, did you give me as much attention as you are now when we are still an item?
okay, maybe now, you are trying to fix things up.
i am still happy whenever i receive your text.
and i tried my very best to get back to you.
yes, i am not a very initiative person. and this does not please you.
perhaps, i'll just try to be more initiative.
and now in the midst of my common test, i really do not have much time to text you and stuffs.
it took me 343538098 hours to type this entry.
now i had said my piece.
i don't wanna give up.
but yet, i got this thought.
and i guess i had hurt myself
by hurting you.
& there is never a right time to say goodbye.
its hard to walk away, my dear.
but i guess lets just walk for a minute.
we had been running for far too long.
we are both tired. lets take a breather.
Y Sunday, December 10, 2006 Y
BULLSHIT
& they think they know everything and anything.
ooh, stop this bullshit please.
you don't know anything behind the scene.
how could you
aiyarh, i don't know why. but sometimes i can feel really emo. DANG! okay, nvm. i am so dead now. common test is just near. and i mean NEAR! i'm hitting the books now. BYE!
*0343
and the saddest thing is that you told the person you once loved that you no longer love him and him loving you still said "actually i don't love you at all"
its hard to walk away. and he actually lied to himself. i am getting so damn fucking emo while watching this drama. argh. kill me please. i ought to be shot.
& its equally sad to fall in love with someone who once love you dearly.
OKAY, NOTHING HAPPEN TO ME ALRIGHT.
ITS ALL THAT DRAMA'S FAULT! ;)
Y Friday, December 8, 2006 Y
kids
i hate people on the bus. i really mean HATE! why cant you simply put on your earpiece and listen to your bloody music instead of playing it out loud for everyone to listen? moreover, you played the same song over and over again. you think you are cool? oh please, you are such a turn-off. -.- kids in uniform. for god sake, talk softly. i'm already blasting my music already and i can still hear your bloody high pitch voice. wth larh. i dislike you!
my ear bleed :(
i hate common test.
i love school
but i dont like exam.
WHAT THE HELL!
i am going to stop saying that F*** word already.
Y Thursday, December 7, 2006 Y
one-eight
I WANT TO BE 18.
for you know i know reason.
so NOV '07 quickly come.
i can't wait!
& please stop laughing at me for being young!
RAH!!
i am going to pon school tml! HEHE!
HAHAHA!
DENG QIAO
PAPER TOO EXPENSIVE
eh miss wong, don't laugh at my cousin larh. tsk. later he cry how? lets cross the DENG QIAO tgt. =D
i may die laughing today. now i understand why i am so fat already. cause frowning burns more calories. so i should stop laughing like siao char bo and start to frown more and burn MORE calories. HAHA!
commontest is coming and i haven start studying. such yayness. HAHA! holidays are coming real soon! =D TBC camp is on the 20 - 22 DEC! i am going okay. so fun so fun. :) x'mas is coming. and i'll be dead broke by then. HAHA!
& make my wish come true;
all i want for x'mas is you.
Y Tuesday, December 5, 2006 Y
changes are constant
alrighto, i am a veryveryveryvery HAPPY girl today.
& i really mean HAPPY!
when things started to go back on track,
you can't help feeling that sweetness in your heart.
just voice out whatever you are unhappy with,
and hopefully, she will change.
now, i'm learning. and hopefully, i'm able to master it.
100% passes for PLW CT. how great can that be? very great larh. hahas. i can't stop grinning when i get back my paper. this can be considered as one of my BEST paper done ever since i step into NGEEANN officially as a student. HA!
thanks everyone for making my last entry so H.O.T :)
and love, i miss calling you lazypiggy.
& i love and miss you so.
Y Friday, December 1, 2006 Y
<3
you know, when someone is planted in your mind for an uber long time.
maybe they are meant to be there.
no matter how hard you tried to forget,
you wouldn't get what you want.
so now, i wouldn't even bother to try to forget.
cause i believe you are suppose to be there.
all i wanna do is to carry on loving you.
will you allow me to do that?
i wish we could bicker like before.
lets get to know each other again.
hello, my most familiar stranger.