Y Tuesday, December 12, 2006 Y
youNAME it
so tell me, is this how our story ends?
or is it just a new chapter?
this love is so so so tough.
i always have this thought.
"hey, will you be better off without me?"
only you yourself will know the answer.
be it yes or no. i don't know.
i know, i have been acting in a way which you may not like.
but hey, i may not love you the way you want me to
but that doesn't mean that i don't love you with all i have.
i know you are tired but i am too.
you want me to whisper sweet nothings?
want me to text you on how much i miss you?
i really wish that someday, i'll do that.
just to make you happy.
but somehow, if i do that, i know very well.
thats not the person you love.
i want to be me. i don't wish to change to a person whom i don't understand.
and if this disappoint you, im sorry.
and i don't quite understand why we have to say so much "SORRY" in this relationship.
loving you was never easy. i knew it right from the start.
we had so much obstacles to overcome right from the start.
but nevertheless, i tried. and all of them can see. i've change a lot ever since i met you.
ask yourself, did you give me as much attention as you are now when we are still an item?
okay, maybe now, you are trying to fix things up.
i am still happy whenever i receive your text.
and i tried my very best to get back to you.
yes, i am not a very initiative person. and this does not please you.
perhaps, i'll just try to be more initiative.
and now in the midst of my common test, i really do not have much time to text you and stuffs.
it took me 343538098 hours to type this entry.
now i had said my piece.
i don't wanna give up.
but yet, i got this thought.
and i guess i had hurt myself
by hurting you.
& there is never a right time to say goodbye.
its hard to walk away, my dear.
but i guess lets just walk for a minute.
we had been running for far too long.
we are both tired. lets take a breather.