Y Sunday, January 28, 2007 Y
ironbirds
i visited love today.
& i wanna work there.
where all my loves are; iron birds.
the place which i truly wanted to be in.
i shouldn't have listen to my sis when it comes to choosing of courses.
i should have just follow what i really wanted.
so i am trying to give myself another chance to do what i really want.
so i guess the only way to do it, is to study real fucking hard.
subra's module is ohsodamnfuckingboringandwesodontlikeit. but when it comes to doing his project, its soohgodamnfuckingfun. janice wong shi yun will have to agree with this.
when it comes to tennis, i still prefer the williams than maria. (:
my eyes is not getting any better. its as red as ever. i need a doc soon.
if i had a choice again, i'll choose again.
no, i dont have any regrets.
its just that now i know what i want,
then i'll know what to choose
i remember when you fell in love,
i could not believe
that it was not with me
i sent a secret prayer up above,
and put my heart away.
so that you could be free.
and i know that right now you're broken into two,
but did you know my heart's been broken since that day i met you.
Y Tuesday, January 23, 2007 Y
BLOODYhell
blood shot eyes lately.
its either something wrong with my lens
or i'm not getting enough sleep.
really, i got nothing to blog about lately.
oh oh, its great to see THEM again. (:(:
Y Monday, January 22, 2007 Y
not good
chelsea lost.
oh well, van persie destroyed my mood. henry too. supposedly a 9 points gap. reduce to 7 points. and now 6 points. every man utd fans are feeling darn sad now.
goodnight.
am not looking forward to school.
but am looking forward to meeting at 6pm later. (:
Y Sunday, January 21, 2007 Y
yes? no?
i'm thinking about whether to buy yet another birkenstock or not.
well, momo. i need a new pair of shoe for new year.
and i thought birkenstock could be the ideal one.
60 odd. hmm
Y Saturday, January 20, 2007 Y
walk away
home away. (:
it's cheebyebye chalet.
BYEBYE!!
Y Friday, January 19, 2007 Y
randomly.
i'm not doing enough
i shouldn't have this feeling
i ought to do what i'm suppose to do
this can't go on.
no, this ain't about that.
its another thing.
i don't wish to speak too clearly.
thats when i leave you with suspense.
Y Thursday, January 18, 2007 Y
moment like this
skipped econs lecture. cause i wanna sleep more. and i know that even if i went for the lecture, i will end up sleeping in th LT. so i made a not so wise decision to continue sleeping. i'm afraid every wednesday will be like this. is not good.
catch up with the girls and boy yesterday. moment like that are always great. we din talk about our schoolworks. we catch up and i really mean catch up. haha. we got a lot to catch up with. once, when all of us except 2 were attached. now, all have broke up except one. haha. you know who you are. how amazing when different people from different backgrounds of different characters can become such besties. (:
always turning in in wee hours is not good. people are just like that. even though, we know that its not good, we still go ahead and do it. how weird.
Y Tuesday, January 16, 2007 Y
"i wanna call, but then i stall
cause after all, i just couldn't take it
cause if your play was to push me away
you know the day, my heart you'd break it"
Y Monday, January 15, 2007 Y
WHERE' WONG?
i realised i haven't been blogging about what im doing recently. HAHAHA! blogger is suppose to be an online journal and im going to blog about whats suppose to be in a journal now! (:
Shiyun Janice claims that i'm high recently. eh c'mon lah. i am always so high! basket you.
WHERE' WONG?
WHERE' VAN?
WHERE' TEO?
WHERE' NG?
WHERE' CHEONG?
just because i login to janiesh's mel and i din see her surname and i start making a fuss over "WHERE THE FUCK IS WONG?" "WONG WHERE?" yesterday. that explain why janiesh thinks that im high. okay, nvm. even the ELS lecturer thinks that i'm high on drugs. -.-
yesterday, i was really a good girl. i did my quiz-es. and hey, i did well okay. fucking full marks for ELS quiz hor! mai siao siao. see, now all come and ask me to help them do. give me your ID, PASS and $5 LOL! i am selling my answers! i spend my whole night doing it okay. basket. i had been sleeping for the weekend. with this kind of weather. woohoo! damn fucking nice. HAHAHA!
TODAY, is monday. and i am a PUI KIA too. HAHA! i ate and ate and ate and ate like there is no tomorrow. with janiESH puikia too. HAHAHA! so we went shopping and i bought a shirt of momo. (: i know, i guai kia. guai kia cum pui kia. i walked until my leg damn fucking soar. HAHAHA! nevertheless, i plan for my night. i plan to bathe, tv, tutorials, tv, tutorials, tv then sleep.. HAHA! i did go according to plan initially. and yes, i deleted the tutorials part. lols! i swear i'll finish my law tutorials sooner. HAHAH!
mom loves that shirt and i know when your daughter bought you things,
you will be darn happy.
so children, get your momo something! (:
(:
Did you think I'd surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
i had been a good girl, why cant you be mine?
Y Sunday, January 14, 2007 Y
and its random (:
im bored. so im going to post some random entry. HAHAHA! wawabahujanicewongshiyun is dancing at MOS. bloody hell. don't always go clubbing leh. wait for me can anot? like 10 months more only what. cannot wait is it? chicken neh neh. lols! by the time i turn 18, i think my mom will be worried. lols. you know i know why. don't bother to elaborate. lol lol lol.
suppose to be at rongjun hse and playing mahjong. haha. but im lazy to go down to the other side of singapore and sit there and see them mahjong. so dumb. cause i know i wun play. lols lols. i'll just sleep there. hahaha. so today i din actually go according to my plan. was suppose to go shopping alone. but i decided to sleep in. so i slept. hahaha! okay, imagine i wake up at 1. then went to sleep again at 3. and slept all the way to 8. this explained why i'm not tired yet at 2am. hahaha.
i blog hop and i saw an entry stating that past is important too. don't ever mention that "don't bother about the past" and that exactly my sentiments too. past, present, future are all equally important. you cannot forsake any of them. what you are today, is shaped by your past. and what you are now, will decide your shape in the future. so your future will be shaped by your present. SEE! they link. yes, people may have ugly past and no one wants to look back. but that ugly past of yours may very well be one of the important lesson that you once learnt. and you need it to reflect. people tend to bother about one's partner past. they don't really bother about your family/friends' past. you can accept a friend who has ugly past but why not your friend's partner who has an ugly past? the reason has to be that you are afraid that your friend will not be what he is now. i don't quite understand what im typing already. lols.
istilldomisshimverymuch
butithinkwhatshesaidistruetoo.
sonowiguessifiguredout,
nowiknow,iwontbothertrying (:
Y Saturday, January 13, 2007 Y
isolation
decided to isolate myself.
shopping alone can be real fun.
so i am going to shop alone.
its a good thing to settle down awhile.
and when the time ripe, i'll start it again.
so i am not going to do anymore stupid dumb things on the street alrd.
i'll be abnormal for once.
or rather, normal.
i just got this little bit of my project left. and i just don't wanna go and finish it up. haha! just the difference only. LOL! still, im lazy. just because the deadline has been push back. its raining for !@#$% yesterday. rained for 24 hours. and you know when it rain, shaoling become super lazy and super love to sleep. hahaha! so i sleep till 1+ HAHAHA! this kind of weather damn nice to sleep in lah. now i'm tired again lah. wahpiang eh. lols! super cool. such a nice weather. haha!
im going to shop alone later. hahaha! nope, i don't feel lonely. HAHAHA! i just want to shop alone. you know, shopping at your own pace. its just pure pleasure lah. you don't understand de lah. unless you all go try doing things alone lah. one day, i will watch a movie alone. hahaha!
okay, i'm a bit gila now.
LOL..
Y Friday, January 12, 2007 Y
B U S Y
i never felt so busy before.
i guess i understand the meaning of busy this time round.
projects stink. they really do.
they can tear people apart.
make people stay up till !@#$% hours which is ridiculous.
nvm about that, i was super pissed off today. i talk back to my dad which is something i always tell myself not to do so. because he speaks real loud and i dont like that face of his whenever he start to quarrel. but well, i cant take it anymore. so i talked back. nevermind about the root of the problem. i hated my dad for today. why din i have more of my mom's genes? one good thing i inherited from my mom is that i can laugh at the slightest things. HA HA HA!
i've become real quiet at home. and i really mean quiet. look like i've grown. but not that UP yet. if you understand what i mean. :D
Y Tuesday, January 9, 2007 Y
not anymore
"i used to have beautiful dreams about us.
but it had come crashing down.
now, dreams of you ain't sweet anymore."
something's wrong with your mind
it won't think of me anymore
was it all a waste of time
tell me why was i such a chore
broken bottles empty
cut my mouth so i can't say
Y Sunday, January 7, 2007 Y
CAN?
# can my darling mp3 faster fill up his battery?
# can my dearest hair dry up faster?
# can man utd just score one more goal?
# can i have a massage?
# can i have more CANs?
LOL! okay, im very tired already.
nights.
Y Saturday, January 6, 2007 Y
weekend
its the weekend! i think i'll be coping myself up in my room and just watch teevee and sleep all day long. what a great plan! YAY! & i can save many many bucks too. i bought too many new clothes this year and mom told me this "eh, you new year buy one set of new clothes can liao." mama ah, new year got 15 days leh. you want me buy one set only. -.- actually, i want new year to faster faster come. put aside those angbaos, i want to have a dinner around that table as a family! its been such a long long long time since we had a decent meal around that table. turn back time leh. i wish i was young again. muahahaha!
i was so tired yst that i actually stone during dinner with young & company. i was so quiet that night. i think they are not used to it and can sense my tiredness. hahaha. thats one exception only. i am usually not that quiet lah. i think im really really tired. haha. i end up sleeping on my sofa with the intention of wanting to watch teevee. my sofa is that comfortable. i leave my com on which is a waste of electricity lah. haha. my sis don't even bother to help me off it. -.- nvm abt that. i shut my com and run to my bed and *poof* i fall asleep straight. its nice to be able to fall asleep once you lie on the bed. :)
finally, im done with one project! such yayness! im gg to give myself a lil break and tb all the way. then tml, i'll do my other project. rahh.. nobody love projects. i swear!
no more billy bombers for one month. im sick of it already. go marche next time leh. (:
check out the new song that my blog is playing. i think its darn difficult to sing that song. HAHAHAH!
Y Friday, January 5, 2007 Y
hit the sack
i cant sleep,
this is what we call insomnia. (as if you don't know. -.-)
i hate this very much.
so want to sleep but i cant
nope, i ain't thinking about anything
but maybe im just lying to myself.
have i told you guys that my 6th senses are darn accurate.
and i dont like the instinct that im having right now.
never mind what is that.
i just dont like it.
i hate my house for god sake.
i think its dirty. literally
i am tired
but i just couldn't sleep.
just for god sake. for once, let me sleep when i so wanna sleep and forget about everything and anything.
I SAW PRETTY EYES TODAY. (:
Y Thursday, January 4, 2007 Y
is fair
"the only way to let go,
is for me to meet a new one.
and then, thats when i really walk away.
you let go first din you? or is it otherwise?"
projects are literally killing me. just kill me puh-lease. i don't love projects. who love projects anyway? new year; projects piling up. its suffocating me. never mind about those crazy nights. i know i'll have more n more nights in there for me. i made a small promise to myself. promises are meant to be kept; meant to be broken. still, people make empty promises.
i am stating thrash above. i don't know what the fuck got into me. just a bit more, and i'll be done with it. still, i don't wanna do it. why does god make men like this? sometimes, i really wish i never exist. if mom really got brainwashed by the government 18 years ago. i guess i'll not be here. the idea of wanting a boy got into dad, thats why he insist on wanting to let me out and see the world. if not, i'll very well be dead 18 years ago. how great.
imissmybrother. though he never really see the world. but still, he was meant to be my brother. i wonder if my mom misses him.
god is really fair. really, i mean it. he is fair. just go observe those people around you. you will really believe that god is fair. people don't own you a living. you had to work hard all by urself. want a big apartment? go work and save. envy people who are born rich? you think that money is just everything? think again. despise people who are poor? you never know how satisfied they are with their life. want a girl but couldn't get her? you think that there is only a girl living in this world? i just don't understand why one's life just evolve around another person. c'mon, you got your own life. you don't live for others! she doesn't love you, okay. get over with it and find other girl.
i may not seem to be a possesive person. but i know every girl has this possesive thingy inside her. and i just got to know mine. i realise that im possesive too. and i really don't like it. its bad for a relationship you know. i do get jealous. yes, i do. but i always have this belief that a couple shouldn't see each other 24/7. cause i'll be bored seeing the same guy for 24/7. i have my friends. i need my friends as much as i need him. but then again, when we din get in touch for quite some time. i still wonder what you are doing, who are you with, are you happy? i have to confess. im jealous when i saw what she wrote to you. guess all i need now is assurance. assure me that you still love me.
lets skype. (:
Y Wednesday, January 3, 2007 Y
istillthinkofyou
in the midst of all fun, i still think of you.
and i know i'll remember you forever.
Y Monday, January 1, 2007 Y
HELLO 2007
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERY HANDSOMES/BEAUTIES! (:
its year 2007. and im on this earth for like 17 years? HA!
last night/this morning was fun fun fun fun fun. i swear i'll never go and watch something for 15mins. and to get there u have to squeeze squeeze squeeze and to get out u also have to squeeze squeeze squeeze. and that something is what we call fireworks. i am so reluctant to go. but some kuku head insist to go there and we have to like stand there for 1 hr before we actually get to see those beautiful moments which lasted for 15 mins or even less. okay, sucha ass.
after those squeezing, we head of to billy's house. woah. its fun i tell you. we drank like 2 and 1/2 bottle of alcholic drinks. ooh-la-la. i drank quite alot. my face was super red. hahaha. i drank but im not drunk. slept abit. then home sweet home. oh yah, i swear i'll never married anyone who snores. if my guy really snores, just kill me please. cause i'm actually a light sleeper and i can wake up at the slightest sound made. so these two guys in the room snores and snores. i almost wanted to throw my pillow at their face and made them shut up. its only when i think i got enough sleep and i couldn't take those snorings anymore then i went downstairs again. haha. never put a guy who is drunk on the same bed with a girl. vodka with green tea ain't so bad. hahaha.
and you know what, lying down at the sofa half dead.
i actually couldn't quite remember how you look like.
and boy, you know what. i am actually very drained.
i don't wish to continue this anymore.
i am really weary of this.
& i suddenly realise something.
my affection for you is not as strong as ever.
maybe maybe. we'll be better off as friends.
and i don't know what the fuck my mom is thinking. i think she is afraid that i can't find a boyfriend. she keep asking me whether do i really hang out with the opposite gender. for god sake, last night there were only like 6 girls and hell lots of boys. and out of this 6, 2 are already attached. so mom, tell me do i hang out with boys? i am normal okay. (:
GOODBYE 2006, you leave me with many many many memorables memories. and i swear i'll never forget '06. that is when a new phase of my life started.
drink drank
and i guess i am really a midnight lady. (:
i shall not try to not to be a midnight lady anymore.